A State of Mind

i hAve come a loNg way
to a distant Place far far awaY
frOm where i used to lIve
aNd from what i used to Do;

Life is a roSy dream,
happinEss and joY aplenty,
everything that I wanted and
everything is as I had hoped for;

Everything is as I had hoped for,
everything is as I had longed for,
everything is excEpt for the tuRmoil
thaT plagues me inside every dAy;

I slEEp, i smilE, i lAugh, i play, i eAt and i livE
in a constant state of fEAr,
a fear that i did not ask for,
and one that i did not longEd for;

killing me frOm inside,
silently screAming for it to sTop,
i am devOured by my own inner sElf,
day in aNd day out;

hAunting and tauNting me,
timE and timE again,
they run helTer and skelTer
in the deep rEcEss of my mind;

it’s just a sTate of mInd,
i tell MYself
hoping to erase theSe thoughts
of fear that hingEs on the Edge of my happIness;

Trapped inside my own mind,
eclipsed by my fear,
tears weep without a choice
hoping to vanquish (flood) this struggle within;